Day 43: ?

Well, I've really thought hard about what I'm doing. Where I want to be and how far I'm willing to go to make it happen. I really don't want to be ashamed of my body at the wedding, but I know I will be. There is no way I can lose enough weight between now and then to make me feel good. But I think if I were at least on the right path it could make me feel a little better, and the dress fit a little better?

I always have trouble with the people in my life supporting what I do to diet. My mom tells me how good I look and then grumps when I don't want to eat the deserts she's fixed or the food someone else provided at a party. The huz doesn't like to hear about food all the time since he's got his own issues to work out. So where does that leave me?

I really just have to bite it and rely on myself. Is it weird that one of the most motivating weightloss things to me is that fattys make less than "normal" people? So if I am going to throw my finances into turmoil by quitting work and going back to school, I am DARN sure not going to let being chubbs jip me out of another 3-15%. NO WAY. It's bad enough that as a woman I will get paid less and have less opportunity for promotion, but there's not a lot I can do about that, is there?

So yeah, healthy living, vanity, confidence, none of that means a thing. Money? How much do I have to lose.

And now for something completely different...

I want to put something besides a weight # up top, so I'm instituting the music and interest of the day.

Music Today: Hootie and the Blowfish I Will Wait for You
Interest Today: lolcats

Welcome back, kittens

Well, it's me. I'm back and bigger and better than ever! Lots of news, gained like a son of a bit**. I weigh a glorious 271 now. That's right size 22.

HAH

It has been a stressful almost YEAR since I last updated. Let's start in May, my little baby brother (who is 23) is engaged and will be getting married in June. I was in a car wreck and got a new car. I got a new job which I love, even if it is somewhat slow-paced. I applied to 4 law schools and was accepted into 2, wait listed at 1, punks! I will be leaving my great job to go to law school in August. I will either be living with my parents 150 miles away from my husband and cat or selling my beautiful house to buy the cheapest apartment money can buy in a nice part of Houston.


So yeah....things have changed.

I just read the last post and started crying at my desk. I would KILL to have that now. So I will have to kill all of my negative whining and crap to get back to it.

I bought running shoes. They're still in the box.